Are YOU ready? I know I am.

...Well, mentally prepared anyway.

Costume wize... ehhh. lol I've got all the pieces to it, now I just have to get myself to work on it.
B-but, the Lazy Demons have taken up residency at my place so...

To do: = DONE

spraypaint wings, pasties, collar.

cut and sew top & skirt.

paint fake nails/claws gold.

attack chain to collar.

get shoes at Dare Ware. sexy 9 inch heels. I tried them out the other day. I can dance and jump around in them so they'll work great!

spray-paint said heels.

make lion tail.


I'll be at #'s (Numbers) shakin' my booty ALL NIGHT and into the morning LONG!!!
If you see me don't be afraid to say hi. I like meeting new folks. (p.s. you can look, but DON'T TOUCH ME! I need my bodypaint to stay on ME. thnx)
I'll be the gold/yellow bodypainted Egyptian Sphinx with big gold wings.

So, what brought this up was a combination of my brother deciding he's going to slim down and me shopping today for work clothes...


I've come to the conclusion that being skinny is only "awesome" when you've got the money to back it up.

And I don't.

When you are skinny and poh:

*Nothing professional looking fits because stores you can actually afford to buy from don't even come close to your measurements.

*Clothes that fit are only available in super-expensive Brand Name stores.

* You always look like a wreck because you're pinned, belted, and halfheartedly stitched together. (plus, you're re-adjusting yourself all day.)

*Unless you are a super-seamstress with lotsa extra time, you are always a bit shoddy looking,( which sucks when you work at a nice men's clothing store).

*You can't afford a tailor.



*sigh* I feel like such a bum at work. It's sooo damn awkward walking by a mirror and noticing "Oh wow! My skirt is hanging halfway down my ass because a pin popped out!" or "Oh noez! My shirt is hugely puckered and I look like a hunchback!"


Skinny isn't glamorous. Don't starve yourself people.


The only stuff you'll find that fits is yo panties! Not bras, GODDESS NO, just panties.

I love panties...

Hello all my lovies.

After my second most recent journal entry I hope I didn't have my faithful watchers worried too bad.

Because things have gotten better. MUCH better and I'm actually super happy. (except for a little heartbreak but he's just so damn amazing! )

'Newho, news for yous: "Here come the news, here come the news..."

*My apartment is mine ALL MINE. And it's got some furniture now. Still no bed or kitchen table, but other good stuff shipped from Maryland.

*I GOT A JOB. heh, almost kissed my new boss I was so happy!. ... that would've been awkward.... lol

*Made some friends and now shake my booty with them(and my bad self) every Thursday & Friday night @ a nightclub named Numbers.

*No roommate yet, but it's kinda entertaining getting late-night phone calls from guys who can barely speak english asking to live with me. (NOT!) I'm like... "hello, my ad clearly states FEMALES ONLY." I wish I knew how they got my number since I never posted it... grrr.

*Halloween is coming up!!!!!!! (need I say more?) I guess I need to, since I'd DYING to tell people about my costume. *batts eyelashes* This year for Halloween I'm going to be an Egyptian Sphinx. Gold body-paint here I come!!!!!!



So that's the news.

P.S. Is anyone going to see Cracktober Fest? I'm in love with this one boy who plays the drums in a band on tour there and have wanted to have his babies ever since we started talking.

...but don't tell him I said that(because he doesn't want a relationship).

fuck my easy heart. I'm such a love-slut. *sigh*

*runs around flailing arms with unbridled excitement!*
OMGOMGOMG, I don't know what to say, it's so exciting, HE'S MARRIED, OhMIGOSH I just found out! *feels so out of the loop, but suddenly back in*

*more running around and flailing of the arms*
I can't believe it! The pictures are so cute!!!!!!! And what a cute name too... Lovelie.

awwwwwww! ....(Alas, there go my dreams of marrying Takamasa. *sigh* not like it could have ever happened anyway, but it was a goooood dream. lol)


[link] click the link luvs!


He looks so sweet and tender with his daughter...



Good going Meeves! and Congradulations!!!! w00t!


I was beginning to wonder if he'd ever settle down and have a family. ^^
awwwww... the cuteness!!!!! ^________^

Clubz: [link]

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Well... my ex-supposed-to-be-roommate has some major issues, I've packed all my stuff, and I'll be flying away in a taxi early this morning to my very own apartment.
(yes, my taxi can fly.)

She's crazy. Who leaves period-stained underware on the bathroom floor for days on end? She abuses laxatives, decides not to eat anything, then decides she'll eat for a while but eats a ton and throws it all up. I mean really...
I didn't come here to be her mom. By the way, her dad is in major denial.
She's not ready to move into an apartment. I didn't sign up for this!
Her house is a mad-house, but it's not the fun kind of mad. Not at all.


I, so very thoroughly, wash my hands of this weirdness. Bitch pleazze...




I don't think life will ever be easy.
It's amazing what a few weeks can teach you about yourself. When faced with adversity I've done rather well here. Texas fits. ^^

Perhaps when I'm older life'll give me some down time.


Basic Update:

*Do I have shelter? Right now I'm holed-up in a little room in The Crazy One's house with my packed things and will be making my way downstairs as quietly as possible and out the door. (it'll take a few trips) Then I'll wait outside the gates with stuff in tow for my taxi. When I arrive at the apartment complex I'll camp out in-front of the leasing office for a few hours(till it opens). Then I'll sign the lease and pay off the first payment. (it has to be done in cash, so I feel a bit like a bank robber with so much money on me. Unnerving? oh yeah.) And, if all goes well I'll get the keys to my apartment, flop on the floor, roll around for a bit, then walk around outside and see what stores I can find. (good thing I don't drink. Probably shouldn't start but it's tempting...) kidding. kidding.
*Do I have furniture? No.
*A pillow and blanket? Nope. But the floor's carpeted.
*A job? Not yet, but I've got an interview this Tuesday that I'm going to throw all of myself into. ^^
*Money? Enough to pay for the first month's rent, maybe the second. Jobs are good for that sort of thing. *hinting that the universe should hire me soon*
*Any food in the fridge? I'm steeling away in the wee hours of the morning, so no, I'm not taking what were my groceries with me. Nowhere to keep it cool on the trip.
*Do I know the area I'll be living in? Barely.
*Am I worried??? I think I'm still in shock. lol




My theme song for now:

"Self Portrait"

~by Stephanie Smith


All of these dreams in my head keep spinning round
I'm grabbing my paper and pencil to pin em down
I'll sketch my world as a prettier place
and draw myself with a smiley face
and make this picture perfect
But all of these lines on my page won't mean anything
until I learn to erase the one's that I don't need
I'm covering up the stupid mistakes and starting
over and over again to make this picture perfect
yeah yeah I'll start where I'm standing now
and begin shaping where I want to be
No one can tear my picture down
because it's me
and as long as I'm still proud of this self portrait I'm creating
I'm doing fine yeah I'm doing fine yeah
Every now and again someone comes along
they try to box me into a corner I've drawn
pushing the walls down struggling free
so I can keep making this picture perfect yeah yeah
I'll start with where I'm standing now
and begin shaping where I want to be
no one can tear my picture down
because it's me
and as long as I'm still proud of this self portrait I'm creating
I'm doing fine yeah I'm doing fine yeah
What I'm sketching doesn't have to be anything fancy
no I'm just shaping stronger sides of me of me of me
yeah yeah yeah I'll start with where I'm standing now
and begin shaping where I want to be
no one can tear my picture down because it's me
and as long as I'm still proud of this self portrait I'm creating
I'm doing fine yeah I'm doing fine yeah I'm doing fine I'm doing fine